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Deterioration as a Series of Little-Deaths
I only feel it in the great empty space underneath my heart,
Where the memorial slips away from the tight curl of my third hand
Unfurling into graceful strips of despair and greed
I never see it, except in flight, winding a thread about my throat
Tracing the way through thinning corridors to its great hub,
Pulling through and out and abandoning me, severed unless I follow
I heard it once, but I couldn’t listen to its quiet hysteria
Seeping from underneath the skin of my arms
Electrifying my hands to continual ripping, throwing, shoving
I will not know it, not its relentless drumming against the inside of my skull
Pounding and rolling my inner eye to blind dilation and slender pain
Nor its million tiny needles delicately slaying my spirit
I must always dread it, hovering beyond the precipice of knowledge
Mocking me with unimportance and simplicity and corundum indomitability
Not even hating me with slim fragile wings and such narrow cruelty
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