Let me just begin this by saying that I woke up at 7.45 this morning on purpose. Sets the mood, don't you think?
(Dumb) (Stupid) (Wish I hadn't joined) SoundSations started rehearsal today. Rehearsal started at 9 and went (I thought) to 10.30-- but it ACTUALLY WENT UNTIL NOON AS I DISCOVERED WHEN I CHECKED THE CALENDER. Let me tell everyone what this means! This means three hours of rehearsal every day beginning at 9 in the freaking morning every weekday from now until school starts on the 21st!
Let me tell you about growing ulcers. I know how to grow ulcers. I grew about five last night. See, rehearsal was this morning, right? Of course, right. And I didn't know my music which I was supposed to be learning all over the summer. Plus, I didn't entirely that is well you know, have a good idea of where the music WAS. So I looked for it. While growing ulcers and doing some sort of weird breathing thing that totally wasn't on purpose but sounded really ill o_o Trashed my room for the fourth time in about as many days, although since I don't un-trash it after trashing, it's not really a FULL trashing, just shoving around of the piles of trash, kind of. And I went downstairs and looked for it, cos see, at the beginning of summer, like in June, I'd put the folder and tape on a chair in the kitchen. Only of course since the kitchen's been cleaned since June... it wasn't sitting on a chair anymore. I looked in the Baker's rack and... well I basically trashed the entire house looking for it, only easily un-trashable trashing since it's not polite to trash places that aren't your personal property. And I didn't find it. And busily grew some more ulcers. I thought maybe it would be in mum and dad's room, but it was like after midnight so I couldn't just waltz in and rummage through their stuff while they were trying to sleep, eh. So I went to bed and set the alarm for 7.45 although rehearsal was at 9 and planned to find it in the morning and while sleeping I grew ulcers. And zits, probably. ::checks face for zits:: Well no, I didn't grow zits, but I grew ulcers. So this morning with mum's help I found it in a drawer that I honestly didn't *actually* know we had because even though it's obviously a drawer, I'd never opened it or anything and didn't know we kept anything in it. o_o Turns out mum put it in there because it's where she keeps *her* choir music for church. So she thought "here is a good place to put choir music." So. I found it. And I had music again. Along with five or six ulcers.
Drank a Slim-Fast, found out rehearsal went until noon and not 10.30, fretted about the voice lesson I was supposed to be having with Dowhy at his apartment at noon and how his apartment is like all the frickin' way across town and AnJa's also was at 11.30 so it's not entirely possible for her to give me a ride over there in such a situation, left it in AnJa's hands to call Dowhy and get things figured out and left. While on the way there mum and I discussed how I didn't want to go and everything ;o She kept coming up with reasons why it wasn't a bad thing... like "you like those people," "this is the stuff you like to do," and things. Sure, I do like a lot of the people... but... honestly... it's *not* the stuff I like to do. Singing, I like... but singing and dancing and being peppy... and singing queer patriotism songs... that's not what I like to do at all. I couldn't imagine why I'd joined... when I knew it was going to be like this... but I avoided saying anything about that to mum. Only she then said like "I know what you're thinking. You're thinking you wished you hadn't joined." yeah. Well, I guess she didn't give birth to me and live with me for 16 years not to notice stuff. Then I magically started to cry because I seem to be an emotionally unstable type chappess T_T But I stopped soonly and I didn't get ugly and puffy or anything. *shrug* And I'm just... totally depressed about all this. I mean... I did have the whole summer to stay up until whenever and wake up whenever and do whatever I wanted with almost no commitments... but it doesn't make me feel better to know that I had that. It just makes me feel sad that it's all over now. I think looking back on good times to cheer you up in the midst of bad ones is more or less the same as consoling yourself for your hardships by reminding yourself of all the people who are in worse situations than you are. You don't feel better about your situation... you just start feeling guilty about feeling bad about your situation, in addition to feeling just as bad about your situation. Youknoworramean?
Anyway I went. And we didn't start until like 9.40 x_x Which was nice cos I sat and talked to Chris and Rico about stuff and then Greg, my former fiancée, showed up and we discussed how none of us had learned our music and thought it was totally queer. Oh. And Greg has this... goatee thing O_O It's the ugliest thing I've ever seen in my *life*. Uuugh. At least his hair was kind of a normal colour. Geez, what a freak. Can't believe I was ever engaged to the blighter ;o [for the information of those who are tuning in for the first time: no, I don't like Greg *that way* nor did I ever, and as far as I know, he doesn't like me that way o_o We decided to get married because he had a job at Chick-fil-A and if I married him I'd get free food. But he quit, so it's all off.] And RICO GOT SABRE MARIONETTE J!!!!!!! I was all happy and he has it on DVD so once I get a DVD player, I'm gonna see if he'll let me borrow it! =D Then I told them about the reduced Gundam Wing which amused me, and did my impression of the scene which planted the seed of wagahai no Brad Swaile obsession: "I can hear you, Trowa. Don't come any closer to me. ....What did I JUST SAY?!" And stuff. Like, half the people in Soundsations weren't even there today because they were on vacation or something :\ And Keith (this dude who's like the choir mascot or something... he's a jerk, but an amusing one) showed up an hour late because he thought it was at 10, not 9 ;o And Ryan, this other dude, showed up forty minutes late because he wasn't sure what time rehearsal was and called Keith to find out XD but Mrs. Davis called the people who weren't supposed to be out of town so he realised his error and arrived as quickly as possible. Then we rehearsed our queer songs that I hate. Actually, I call them queer mainly because... they are, and because Scurlock herself even described the end of one song as "kind of queer." O_o() Normally I'd call them stupid or gay or hate hate hate, but under influence of Scur, I call them queer ;o FYI: when I say something is queer or gay or not hetero, I'm not really bashing homosexuals o_o It's odd... but... erm... well, one of my good friends is gay... I just call things gay because... I do... maybe I should stop... but sometimes it's the only way to describe something... *blink* Well, it doesn't make sense. But whatever.
Then turns out Dowhy was having lessons at the school, not his apartment. So since my lesson was at noon and rehearsal ended at noon, it was all good. *shrug* Except that I didn't know that and had left my non-Soundsation music at home and AnJa didn't think to take it with her when she went for her lesson so I just warmed up, screwed up my frontal "oh" and "ah" as per usual, and sightread. :|
Came home... ate stir-fry... unfortunately, Dear Brad is going to get many pockmarks on his face because I didn't finish my rice. (I was very full.) Drank a soda... talked to Jamie on the phone about Harvest Moon, Zelda, and her black market copy of Pokémon Gold (the mail guy won't take his mail, and trainers say "Damn you!" when she beats them). Then I got on da computer, started this entry (I wrote the first two paragraphs) and AnJa came and got me and persuaded me to go out with her and mum. We went to EZ's and drank soda and drew beautiful pictures. We then went to Hobby Lobby and... I... hung out and stuff. We were looking for blue jewel things to replics these thingies on this T-shirt she has that fell off but we couldn't find any so we left. Then she and mum went to Linens n' Things and there was a Barnes & Noble next to it in the shopping centre so I went there and read vol. 1 of Kazan (it was really cool!) and about 1/3 of DBZ vol. 5. I also picked up an X-Men comic novel and, before realising it was one I'd read before, this guy at a table a little ways away from me goes "Little girl." I ignored him cos I didn't think he was talking to me o_o But it turns out he was o_o and he goes "Little girl, have you seen that movie?" and I was still confused that I was being addressed as 'little girl' and I was like "Ehh... you mean X-Men?" and he was like "yeah" and I was like "Yeah..." and he was like "Did you like it?" and I was like "Yeah..." and he was like "Do you think they'll make another one?" and I was like "Uhh... maybe... that'd be nice..." and then he was like "Have you seen Planet of the Apes yet?" and I was like "No... I want to see it, though..." and he was like "You need to go see it!" Thus ended Little Girl Rachel's conversation with the creepy Barnes & Noble guy. Seriously though, "little girl"? I'm 16 years old... and yeah, I'm short, but I... *ahem* well... I'm... uhh... more talented than a little girl. Actually, I have a rather exaggerate feminine shape, in my opinion, which makes me "young lady" or something, NOT "little girl." I wasn't offended or anything, I just thought it was kind of weird. *shrug*
Then... home, and more computer time for yours truly. Mum made supper, I went down and ate with my loving family (it was tuna casserole, most delicious) then came back up here. Then I got off the computer and went into the family room where they were watching Rush Hour. Which I've seen twice in the past three weeks. So even though it's a great movie and I love it, I wasn't too thrilled to watch it again, but I didn't feel like being on the computer anymore because I wasn't doing anything at all useful, so I asked AnJa if I could use her TV and watch the X movie that Chris lent me. She said yes and then decided since she'd also seen Rush Hour recently she'd watch it with me. So we watched X. *yay* Aoki r0xX0rZ. Kanoe is such a slut T_T It was good. It wasn't spectacular or anything. But it was good. *shrug* The animation was pretty, anyway. The part at the end where (DO NOT READ FOR SPOILERS) Kamui and Fuma are having their big swordfight and they both leap at each other with swords, me and AnJa were like "Yeah! Samurai!" and we were hoping they'd both strike and land facing opposite each other and then one of them would fall over. *shrug* You know. So then when Kamui's sword cut through Fuma's and then just lopped his head off, I went "Oh! That's... different!" and we both cracked up laughing O_O Sure, it was a totally inappropriate thing to do, but... ^^()()()() Well, you know, when something really unexpected happens... o_O Oh yeah, for those of you who've also seen the X movie dub and wonder about the part where Aoki does sign language to Karen and they don't translate the Japanese subtitle, he says "Karen-san kekkai o onegai shimasu." *nod* That clears it all up, eh? ... okay, okay, he asks her to "do a collapse," basically, he wants her to... break the station or something? Oh well, I didn't know what "kekkai" meant until just now when I looked it up, so even though I can write down kana for everyone and I knew he asked her to please do a kekkai, I wasn't looking for context or anything. Yeah. *blink*
Watch Martial Law, co-starring Sammo Hung! He is Jackie Chan's Big Brother! =D (No, not REALLY his older brother, but they were both students at the China Drama Academy and Sammo [then known as Yuen Lung] was Biggest Brother, that is, the student who'd been there the longest and had the most authority and stuff) He used to be a bully and was really mean and aweful but then he kinda got nice and he and Jackie hated each other but then they became really good friends o_o And also he got fat. But he's still got moves. So it's kinda creepy when I watch Martial Law (I've seen it only once, in Corpus Christi, guest-starring Chuck Norris) because he's this big chunky guy, and he's got all these... moves. o_o Also, Sammo directed Mr. Nice Guy (GREAT movie!) and cameos as the guy on the bike who keeps getting beat up XD
Okay, the journal entry is over. I will try not to be depressed about Soundsations =\ Byzeebye.