14 Feb 02

Bleh, it's late and I'm tired and I want to go to bed, but I can't yet because I don't want to leave my computer on all night and I'm in the middle of a huge upload. As I write this, I finally finished putting Silla's Cafe back up, and as soon as I'm done with SMRPG, I am SO going to bed. Tomorrow (today) I'm going up to Austin to see AnJa, hurray! We were going to go to Galveston and see RENT (W00T!!!!!).... but that plan fell through so poop.

I was at Barnes & Noble tonight and I started reading Taggerug (I think it's called that?) by Brian Jacques. It's one of three Redwall series books I've not yet read. I need to reread the whole series, anyway, because it's been a long time and the only ones I can remember vividly are the ones I read twice (Mossflower and Redwall). Actually, come to think of it, I think I've read Mossflower three times.

I had to clean my room before mum would let me go to Austin. BWA. But I cleaned it, so, yeah. Um. Okay, okay, so I'm just really tired and I don't have anything else to do because I got tired of playing FF1 for the night (I just got the Earth Orb to shine again or whatever) and I'm writing a retarded journal entry that everyone will hate, and I don't bloody care.

The HTML I'm using to separate paragraphs is [P] [DD]. I find that amusing. Ho ho ho. Today was Valentine's, and at my school what they do is make a construction paper heart with everyone's name in the school on it, and they post all the hearts in the cafeteria and you can either take your own or take the one of the person you like. Vince was making a bunch of hearts with his name on them in English, so I took one he didn't write on yet and put "Brad Swaile" on it and wore it all day =D =D =D *_* Brad Swaile *_*

Argh, even though it's so far away I'm already nervous about seeing him at ACen. I want to make a really good impression, and I don't know what's the best thing to do. And I don't know what to wear and stuff. Gah, I'm such a girl. (but as I said to Hans, after all this time, it's nice to know XD)

SSB Melee 0wnz0rz m3. I got Dr. Mario, Luigi, Ganondorf, Young Link, Jigglypuff, Marth, and Roy... I can't get Falco because I can't beat 15-minute Melee (even though I got down to like 4 minutes once with Young Link and I was so very angry when that stupid wireframe that's not even as cool as the Fighting Polygons [even though the rest of the game is tons cooler] KO'd me, but I usually only make it to nine minutes, sometimes six, so you know). And I can't get Mr. Game and Watch or Pichu because I don't know how, I think I saw it on a guide but I forgot, so after I get Falco I'll find out about those. Anyway, Link as always is ultra awesome, and Young Link is SOOO PRECIOUS. Marth totally rocks out as well. Peach is hilarious and great as always ("Ohhh, did I win?"). BUT DARN IT, SHEIK IS A MAN!!!!! Look at that build! Those are pecs, dude! SHEIK IS A MAN!! That's why it's MAGIC! HE'S A MAN! A MAN! Ooh! You know what would rock. If you could play as the Skull Kid or Princess Ruto. Course that would bring the Princess count up to three, so whatever. Which reminds me to talk about Majora's Mask, because I think I never did since I finished it before I ever started a journal maybe? Well, here goes let's talking about Majora's Mask the game that's super cool! New paragraph! P. Diddy!

***spoilers for Majora's Mask / Ocarina of Time may ensue**

The game did the same thing to me as OoT did. That is, I got emotionally involved in it... something I've never done with any other games, really. The closest I've come to being that involved was with FF9, but even then it didn't compare. When I was playing OoT, I hated Ganondorf. *Hated* him. It wasn't just a "oh, he's the bad guy, I have to beat him", I really, truly, despised him and I wanted to go and kill him. Part of that was, of course, because I was playing OoT when I was in 8th grade which is part of middle school which is part of my psychological instability period. But really, when I got to 7 years in the future and I got out of the Temple and saw what had happened to Hyrule Castle Town, I was sooooo depressed. Another part of which is also due to the fact that I got to that point the night before I had to go back to school after Christmas break, so I was bummed about junk anyway ;o But even so!!! Also, Ruto ROCKS the HOUSE. I know lots of people hate her, and I hated her too at first, but she's really not that difficult to understand if you try. I mean, come on, she's scared out of her mind and she's lost the only keepsake she has of her mother's-- so projecting the anger she already feels and masking her fear and loneliness by acting witchy and arrogant isn't at all out of the ordinary scope of typical human reactions. I think Link should have married her, anyway =O!!! Oops, I haven't even mentioned anything about Majora's Mask. P DD!!!

I was bothered a lot by some bits of the premise, and there are still some aspects of the storyline I don't entirely grasp. See, you turn into Mikau, what's his face (O_O the Goron, ack I'm horrid), and the Deku Butler's son... and so in a way, those people can finish the important tasks they began and rest in peace. But Link never tells anyone he's not the REAL Mikau, Darmani (DARMANI!), whatever... so they think that person really isn't dead after all. At least in Darmani's case, they were to the point where they knew he was gone, they were trying to deal with it-- and then suddenly he's alive again. When it turns out he was a fake, doesn't that make the blow hurt that much worse? Also... I have a big problem with the way everyone is to the Skull Kid "Oh, it wasn't your fault, it's okay"... regardless of whether he was corrupted by the mask, it was his decision to mug a guy and steal the mask in the first place, and it hadn't yet taken him over to that extent when he stole Epona and killed the Deku Scrub. That's another thing that kind of got me... real *death*. In OoT you had that awesome guy who turned into a Stalfos, and of course you kill the bad guys and stuff, but it wasn't really like anybody *DIED* the real death. Majora's Mask contained lots of Real Death. Well, not lots maybe, but at least there were Mikau, Darmani, and the Deku Scrub, which first of all are bad enough on their own and second of all were made worse in my eyes by the fact that Link parades around pretending to be them. I know it wasn't like he stood in the middle of town and was like "HELLO, CITIZENS, IT IS I, DARMANI, AND I HAVE NOT DIED AFTER ALL!!!" and they all had such very noble intentions, but it's just better if you can tread a little more lightly after someone who's an important person to the others around them has just died. I realise you can't put tact first when the fate of the frickin' world is at stake, but it still seemed kind of... cruel. Then there's the whole issue of Majora himself (itself?). The story the old lady tells you can't really be about the Skull Kid since it happened so long in the past and 1) the Giants said they would tear him apart and 2) he was banished to the heavens (the moon), which means the story was about Majora. And THAT means the stories and backgrounds of both Majora and the Skull Kid are basically the same... Majora just didn't have anyone who was looking out for him. Which is sad. The "dream world" in the moon you finally fight him in has the kids... and the Majora kid, I think, is really just Majora... a depressed little punk who fell into corruption because nobody would be his friend. The kids running around are more aspects/manifestations of Majora... so even though he turned evil and was going to kill everyone, on the inside there was no difference. So if the Skull Kid-- possessed by the Mask-- had really destroyed Termina, would that have really been Majora's fault, or would it just be Majora's feelings added to the more or less identical ones already felt by the Skull Kid, leaving him just as culpable? After all, they really were the same. Oh yeah, and what's with the freaky Mask Shop guy? For real, I thought he was going to be the final boss... o_o I mean, he keeps on being all "BRING ME THE MAAAASK" and making the creepy face, so I kind of thought what would happen is you would beat the Skull Kid, get the mask, take it back to that guy... who would then put it on and be evil and final boss-y and stuff. But I don't get that guy anyway.

***area which potentially contains spoilers ends here***

Once I got so I could pretty easily pass all the Difficult mode songs on DDR, I promoted myself to Expert... and I got pretty much all E's except for like two C's and an A (on "Have You Never Been Mellow") both the first two times I went through. But last night I tried again and I got a D on most songs XD Yay, I'm improving XD

holy freakin' ouch, I just hit my elbow against the chair, you know the part of the elbow that if you hit it against something your whole arm hurts hardcore and goes numb XO

THIS WEEKEND: My birthday party. NEXT WEEKEND: All-State Choir. A FEW WEEKENDS AFTER THAT: Nothing. THEN THE NEXT WEEKEND AFTER THOSE WEEKENDS (5-6 April): Latin State competition. WEEKEND AFTER THE WEEKEND AFTER THAT: ACen 2002. Musical auditions are coming up soon. I don't want to be in it, well I do but I don't-- I really like Mr. A, the director, but I've had nonstop time commitments the entire first semester and I like being able to just have nothing I really need to do. The problem is Scurlock, who's not the type of person you can just say "sorry I don't feel like doing it" to. Solution? I gots to get a job by that time so I can say I can't be in the musical since I have to work o_o() Plus it's Guys and Dolls, which appeals to me not even a tiny bit at all. I need a job anyway because I want to buy a PS2 and have tonnes of great spending money for ACen and AX02. And cosplay, which ain't cheap unless you're an Excellent Official Seamstress, and even then getting material that isn't shoddy can be un-cheap. I'm going to AX as Beatrix, but I haven't decided whether to ask mum to make it for me or order it from that crazy Setsuna Kou lady (who's really crazy, but makes great costumes). I think I won't really cosplay at ACen, but I obviously want to wear nice outfits... =D()() I would like to cosplay there at least one day (I'll be there for the whole thing), but I don't know as whom to go. I could step up the Beatrix preparations and pull it off early, I suppose... decisions, decisions.

Ugh, judging by the current trend, it's going to take at least another forty-five minutes to finish this... I probably shouldn't have started it... but you know... I guess I could just cancel, but I'm sending a file to Maxim so I gotta stay on for at least another half hour anyway, so I might as well let it go. *sigh*

Notes about Andromeda: Hardcore Trance looks prettier than old Trance, but I miss old Trance because Hardcore Trance doesn't taste like grape. Also, last weekend's episode (with the blonde cruise tour lady) was *really* poorly written... and according to my source, that's the kind of quality we can just be expecting. The head writer's leaving and they're shifting the main focus to Dylan rather than the other members of the crew, which 5uxX0rz because Dylan is my *least* favourite of the main characters. I mean, he's cool and all, but everyone else is WAY cooler. But anyway, we're looking forward to at least another two seasons of Dylan-centric, badly written A plots and microscopic, equally badly written B plots about the characters I really care about. XO I should start a petition or something... Oh yeah, also, Rommy looks freaking hideous on the latest two episodes. Not only is that the ugliest haircut I've seen in my life (the haircut's not ugly on its own, but it REALLY looks bad with her face shape and stuff), her makeup looks funky too. And what the freak is this "You're so sad cos Dylan is your best friend and you just have to go and cry cos you're so very lonely if he's not there" crud Rommy's giving Tyr? I really can't imagine that's what the writers originally had in mind, and Tyr's closer to Harper or Beka than to Dylan anyway, so what's up with that, eh!

I wuvs my Harper! *hugs Harper plushie* And my Tyr! *hugs Tyr plushie* And my Brad Swaile! *hugs Brad Swaile plushie* and my Link! *hugs Link plushie* ...I want plushies of Harper, Tyr, Brad Swaile, and Link. And also of Vincent V., and the Amazon Trio, and Quatre, and Ryouga. Oh so cuuute!

I first read The Sound and the Fury in ninth grade of my own volition, and I loved it. Now it's assigned reading for 11th grade English, and I still love it. Quentin (the elder, or the dude) is so cool. o_o I mean, he's not, but he is. Quentin the younger is kind of cool too just because she's a girl named Quentin. That fat Canadian youth (Shreve XD) also rocks. As if the book didn't have enough questionable themes... read the part of the Quentin section where Mrs Bland was arranging for Shreve to move out, then the part where Quentin, Shreve, Gerald, and everyone are in the carriage, and you'll see what I mean XD ("I moved my knee again"). I always picture Quentin as being very slightly effeminate-- not so much girlish, really, as just not being masculine at all. o_o And also I picture him as being kinda cute. But there's just as good a chance that he's ugly as heck. Of course, Natalie liked him... or did she? XD Such a confusing book, but I really just love it.

*points* WHAT IN THE WORLD IS THAT?!?! *runs away*

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